Joys & Regrets
Last year and the years before were a great many years, I experienced a lot of things, made new friends, made better old friends, went out a lot, spent a lot too (you owe me!), and basically just had a blasty blast of a time doing things that really made me happy to be in high-school life in general. What I've come to realize recently was, I think I've lost the part of me that cared more about the important things in life, and by that I mean my studies. So this year, it's gonna be all about the pen and paper, highlighters, text books and what have you, and less about the socializing, which I know I'm ridiculously good at! :p There is so much to learn and appreciate in this world in the form of knowledge, and I'm gonna owe it to myself to learn as much as I can with passion...something which I need more than anything right now! I'm gonna turn my life upside down, because apparently right side up isn't doing so well for me.
Friends
I'm really happy with the friends I have and the people I know, so I don't think I should be concerned about "people" in this point of time. Talking to Zohaib yesterday made me realise a lot about who I am, what I was and what I should really be. Zohaib might seem annoyingly knowledgeable about things in life, but truth be told...he is right...about a lot of things. I guess out of all the people I could write about, there's just something about Zohaib that words won't do. I'm not saying he is mysteriously superior than others or something, haha. :P He is always there when you need to be scared into believing the cold harsh face of reality, and for that...I need to owe him something. :)
Iman leaving Malaysia seemed like nothing to me. Iman, I know you'll be reading this so bear with me. :) When she first left, I didn't feel anything at all, seemed like just another day where I could easily go online and she'll be there...just waiting to say "SHAH!!" when I come on. Then I realised that this was just the same thing I was going through when Mohammed left...you don't know how great of a loss something really is until you realise it's not there anymore. I've had some of the most brilliantly engaging conversations with her, something I'll never forget. I still can't believe I spent New Year's without talking to her! Iman I seriously miss you! That thing you wrote about in my valentines dedication still gets to me every time! I guess I really should give you your dedication by now. ;)
Sometimes I think I don't give Akash enough credit for the kind of person he really is. We are best described as the Perpetually Pissed Pals who love talking everyday! Haha, if that sounds gay, then it probably is! :P I've had all types of conversations with this dude, from the morbidly insane to the clinically depressing! Hey look, I used big words after so long! Yay for me. :D Akash is the nicest person I know, ever so humble, ever so timid and always seems to know what's good for me. Part of the reason why I appreciate talking so openly these days is because of this guy. He is my go to kinda guy whenever I need to talk...and trust me when I tell you, a friend like that is a rarity that you should appreciate. :)
Out of everyone I know, this guy takes the cake in pretty much every memory of a good time I've had in high-school and thereon after. He told me once, that there are some people who walk into your life and at some point, you can't imagine life as it was before, without them, and this is so true! I don't know how I know him, or why, or when, where, which, what?!?!?! o_O Actually I do, but it's like taboo to talk about it or something, haha. I've learned so much from this guy, it's insane! I'll probably never accept that fact when he is around, or if there's a girl around. :p You KNOW you have a best friend when it actually becomes embarrassing to acknowledge that. :p lol Don't deny it! I don't know what I'm thanking you for, but thanks for everything. :) I'm not gonna mention who this person is, because if you've read this far, you'd already know! :P
Things As They Are
Don't feel down or disheartened because you're not on the list, it's just a list after all, you're still in the little blog entry I like to call, a place in my heart, and I'm pretty sure it's working it's way on top! :D Those four above get a mention because I personally feel that they've been the greatest influence to me since Oh-7 and probably in general. Friends are hard to come by, friends with trust and character are even harder, and I have four of them. And it's true isn't it? Who you choose to be around you lets you know who you really are.
Well it's a new year, let's see what this year has to offer...no instead...let me see what I have to offer to it instead. ;) Thanks for taking your time to read this if you haven't pressed the fast forward button already! :P I'm gonna leave you with a little picture I found which I find to be one of the coolest/striking images I've seen in ages. One of the reasons why I've recently been obsessed on going to Antarctica...the most beautiful place on Earth!
Those people on the zodiac are lucky! :(
